“God changed my heart, He had a higher calling for my life”
When I look at the things God has done and what he has brought me through it usually brings me to tears. I am currently a Worship Leader at one of the biggest church’s in Europe. A dream job, dream career and dream lifestyle. 11-12 years ago I was homeless, in trouble with police, hanging with the wrong crowd selling and taking drugs, getting drunk every other weekend – the list is endless.
I found myself suffering from rejection – I’ve never met my father and was bullied at school, whilst having a step-dad who locked us in the house for the whole summer holidays. I suffered badly with anger issues and lashed out at everyone. Even amongst so-called friends, I struggled to find myself being accepted and in the end I went crazy fighting, robbing and sleeping around. My mum kicking me out was the best thing that ever happened to me.
I found two jobs whilst I was homeless, one of which was at a supermarket chain. I worked hard, but was still a nightmare for my managers. Nevertheless, eventually I crossed paths with someone who saw the good in me. She saw my potential and pushed me – I was soon promoted to a team leader position. I then met my son’s mother, we were like two peas in a pod, but just as everything seemed great, we broke up and it broke me. I desperately needed to feel loved, then I walked straight to Jesus. I went to my old church and it was great: no rejection, no judgement, no condemnation – just the presence of God. I always went there once in a while, but this time I accepted Jesus and I knew there was no turning back.
Soon after my son’s mum and I got back together and she then accepted Jesus, we were baptised together on the same day. I had also been promoted for a 3rd time. It was my desire to be a store manager and God took me there. I was given a position as a store manager eight and a half years after joining the company. Two weeks after God changed my heart and began to reveal to me that He had a higher calling for my life. I began to cry out to God, I wanted to worship him for a living and I wanted no more resistance to my service to The Lord – there was one problem MONEY. I was so concerned that I wouldn’t be able to live on anything less than my salary and God said ‘Do you value the money or do you value me?’ I knew what I had to do.
I stepped down from my position as a store manager and within 3 days was appointed in my current role and dream job. Meanwhile I have been freed from the bondage of rejection. I am separated from my son’s mum, but have a positive relationship with her and my son. God has blessed me with new friends and people around me.
When your foundation is Christ all things are possible. When you’re committed to His glory He is committed to your success😊 “But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.” Matthew 6:33 NKJV
As testified by Dwaine
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