“I attracted men in my life who had traits of my father and were unavailable and at times disrespectful”.
The more I kept trying to do things my way the more things would go wrong. More often than not I would seek solace in self-help books, yoga or mindful meditation. However, none of these things provided me with peace.
I’m learning slowly that my peace rests in Jesus Christ as he is my stamp of approval. I use the word ‘learning’ because I never really understood how important my relationship with Jesus is and it is still a relationship that I am working on.
A scripture that rests in my heart is Philippians 4:6-7 which says ‘6 Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. 7 Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus’.
I’m not saying that I don’t have days when I am doubtful, because I do. To be honest this morning I woke up with negative thoughts about the fact that I am 36, single and do not have children. I didn’t feel so peaceful this morning but I knew that I would only find the answer in talking to God. As I said my prayers I felt a sense of peace and understanding that everything is in God’s time. His peace is what keeps me alive.
Jesus Christ is my friend, my brother and my everything. Like the psalmist wrote, I want to get to a place where I am led in God’s truth for he is the God of my salvation (Psalm 25:5).